It was tough getting back to work last week, after the holiday.  We’d spent a week at home – allowing ourselves to re-explore the spaces we spent with Kiran.   I guess I’d like to get to a point where I can cross back and forth between these two worlds readily – to live in both of them at the same time.   There’s such a swirl of memories that have arisen over the last few weeks.  I mostly have good memories of Kiran now.   He still makes me smile.  There is, however, always the pang of loss that follows.  I just miss him so much.

Next weekend, we have planned a remembrance for Kiran.   There are many people we will see again for the first time since the Memorial Service last year.  I’m looking forward to it.  I want to hold on to Kiran’s world – not in a static sense of being frozen in time – but in keeping a community connected.