I was on a plane again last week. While sitting at the gate, waiting to pull back I thought about how much Kiran would have enjoyed airplanes, both watching them and flying too. He never got the chance. We’ve flown more in the last year than in the previous four combined, and every time I’ve got on a plane I imagine that Kiran would have loved the experience. And then I realize that I’m probably projecting. I grew up around airplanes. My father was an aircraft engineer and some of my earliest (and fondest) memories are tied to planes. The truth I have to face is that I don’t know what Kiran would have thought. There’s so much I’ll never know about my boy .
#1 by auntie shelley on February 15, 2010 - 9:18 am
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You may be projecting, but you’re basing it in large part on your (our) experience of Kiran’s love for new things and new adventures, however small. For what it’s worth, I think you’re exactly right that Kiran would have loved watching planes as well as flying in them. It makes me sad that these are just some of the experiences he’ll never have, nor will you and Tricia experience them through his eyes. But I don’t think there’s anything wrong with imagining what it would have been like to share some of your meaningful activities and adventures with your beautiful, curious son. Just try not to torture yourself too much in the process …. xo